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February 11, 2006
I think this entry just might prove how emo I really am...
What the fuck.
I get into my jacuzzi after a long depressing day to rid me of any negative thoughts, to soothe and calm my nerves, in the hopes that maybe just maybe, it was the dreary weather that had brought me down so quickly.
Only to be crying uncontrollably afterwards.
I don't know what's wrong. I'm not happy. I'm losing interest in things. None of my damn photo shoots are worth shit. All I do is just sit and read. Despite the fact that I'm actually socializing with my friends (and not feeling any anxiety as before).
It's been more than two months. Shouldn't I be freakin happy by now? Don't I deserve the least bit of a quiet, relaxing moment without hating myself, everything I do, everything I photograph, and worst of all, him?
I feel so fuckin alone.
"En este mundo descomunal, siento mi fragilidad."
Posted by starmagn at February 11, 2006 11:47 PM
Comments
um. I LOVE everything you photograph, if the random opinion counts (from a blogger who can't put enough damn postage on an envelope to actually make it to the destination!). You can come here and do the following me around with the camera thing if you want!!! I don't promise that it'll be a SUCCESSFUL photoshoot though!
Posted by: Blondie at February 18, 2006 11:30 PM
Thank you :D I am gaining my confidence back. I just shot a really awesome fashion shoot, and I think it's going to look really beautiful.
Posted by: Amy at February 18, 2006 11:38 PM