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December 28, 2006

And I'm a lucky man with fire in my hands.

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The sixth year (or fifth, whatever) of this new Millennium was/is undoubtedly the year I lost contact with myself in all sorts of ways. For 11 months and a half I felt my focus in life slipping away like nothing I've ever experienced before. The first pivotal event of my adult life, the long-awaited college graduation, only yielded more tears and confusion and an overwhelming unshakable anxiety of the most negative kind. A breakup that, yet again, I did not know how to handle, paving a treacherous way for the anger to claim my words and state of mind.

But for every instance where I leaned backwards to fall, a little beam of light shot forward and I was once more able to walk.

For every blasted song that reminded me of him, there were a hundred more that brought back the good times.

For every Saturday night that I spent in bed staring at lifeless images on the TV, there were countless of Pizza Fridays to look forward to.

For every disastrous photo shoot that my professor and classmates despised, there were enthusiastic comments on Flickr that told me I had done good.

For every early morning that I had to endure, there was his online presence, thousands of miles away, midway into his day, that gave me a glimmer of hope.

For every bloody, ugly spider I (and the roomie) had to kill every single day, there was that very comforting feeling of having moved out of that damn apartment (though we miss you, Crazy Cat!)

For every 15 minute long 30 degree freezing bike ride at 8:43 in the morning, late as heck for class and sleepy as hell, there was that awesome hot September day when I drove my very first car all the way to work.

For every moment of despair 2006 brought unto me, there was always something, as insignificant as a ketchup smiley on a paper tray at Johnny Rockets or as grand as having my mother present at my college graduation, that told me, wake up, shower, get out of bed and face this new day, you are so much more than this. I believe I have captured each and every one of these moments, either through the lens of a camera or through my eyes. These colorful images represent them, and looking at them, I think, You know, it really wasn't so bad.

So I guess, thank you all, your comments and your lurking (yes, that means you!) did bring a smile to my face. Thanks to my friends from back home (y'all know who you are), to the friends in Savannah that forced me to go out and drink and to the ones I have yet to meet. :D

Here's to 2007, bitches!

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Planning for my future


Planning for my future
Originally uploaded by Amy Nieto.
These are my words, sketches, ideas, thoughts, feelings and dreams scribbled unto archival paper, all waiting to be transformed into reality. Am geting really excited for the launch of Star Magnolia sometime in 2007. Very very very excited!

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December 22, 2006

Whistling away on a rainy Friday night

1) Drinking Buddy of The Year?
Drank "several" times with Carlos, Patrick and Jaime.

2) Lifetime service award - Longest friend
Janice as always. Actually, I think Mariola has been a friend longer. Hmm. Agmar beats them all, but only because we are cousins and we're forced to be friends. :P

3) High Point of the year?
Graduating, bitches!

4) Low point of the year?
Spring Quarter's ecclectic nervous breakdowns.

5) Best holiday?
July 4th. Tori's party!

6) Anthems for 2006?
Shakira - No - for the breakup
Otis Redding - Try a Little Tenderness - for hope
Justin Timberlake - SexyBack- because somebody had to. :D

7) Any regrets?
The artistic breakdown I had during Spring Quarter.

8) Best Night Out?
All Pizza Fridays and ... $5 PBR pitchers at the Rail? Yeah...

9) Worst Night out?
I don't recall any bad night out. They all happened a month prior to this year.

10) Who did you spend your valentines with?
With my sexy 4x5 Cambo camera. Fuck yeah. (well she ain't mine... but someday!)

11) Best relationship?
Bunch of awesome people I befriended this year.

12) Worst relationship?
Ex.

13) Best concert?
None, but OMG I sang kareoke for the first time EVAR sometime in July. And wow. Simply wow. That was.... literally to die for.

14) Best New Friend?
Hmmm, Eryka? I dunno, a lot of people. Megan, Enoch (sorry hehe), some other Lady and sons peeps, Jenn, Carlos and Patrick, gosh too many people.

15) Best Decision All Year?
To buy my freakin car, man.

16) Best new album that you have got?
Hmm, Justin? lol fiona Apple (yes I know, it was released in '05),

17) Most proud moment?
for sure, graduation. My mami was there. That's all I needed.

18) Most reliable people?
Tamara's pretty reliable, I guess. lol

19) Best job of the year?
Umm.... Well. Lady and Sons was a good experience. Fuckin stressful beyond human comprehension though.

20) Best Film?
I am sooo behind on movies man. Mostly watched TV. Got hooked on Lost.

21) Worst film?
The Day After Tomorrow - yes I am quite aware it was released back in 04 (I believe) but I just had the pleasure of finally watching it a few weeks ago. And...OHMYGOD... a pack of wild ravenous wolves in the middle of FROZEN MANHATTAN. AND DENNIS QUAID. WHAT MORE CAN A HUMAN BEING WANT! OHHH A CONSTANTLY POUTING JAKE GYLLENHAL! (actually, THAT I did enjoy, mm mm mm bitch)

22) Favorite quote of the year?
"[insert random stupidity here]@!!!11one111oeleventy!!1one"

23) Rate 2006 on a scale of 1-10(best)
6, only because I graduated.

24) Plans for '07?
Restarting my handbag + accessories bizness and... going wherever the wind blows.

25) Funniest Friend
A whole lot. But seeing as I haven't mentioned my fiancee Dan in this meme, I figured it would be a good time as any to plug his Comedy Gold! routines.

26) Best Family Member Award
umm, I dunno, everybody? That's kinda unfair.

27) Craziest Friend Award
They're all fuckin insane. I'm the only one who is not, in fact, insane.

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December 21, 2006

It's pink!

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You guys have no idea how much in love I am with my Christmas Tree. Sure, I never did quite finish all the ornaments I had planned on creating, but I cannot stop looking at it. It stands right by my left as I write this. I dunno, it just makes me happy! Thankfully, I've felt a whole lot happier and resolved in the past week. I believe this upcoming year will be more upbeat than this past. But it all depends on me, of course. A lot of ideas and plans have been written down, and now I finally feel like my hands are up to the task, willing to create fantastic lovelies!

Okay, so my tree! OMG I love it. So I shall share with you fun closeups of its awesomeness (I'm also practicing on my Martha Stewart Weddings-esque styling and photo skills, to build on that crazy portfolio of mine)

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These are some of the ornaments for the tree. There are only three handmade ones, because I got tired. The other two are random jewelry I found at the local junk/vintage shop.


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This AMAZING ribbon is from my fave store in the whole wide world, @ Home here on downtown. I found both horses at the vintage/junk shop. For some reason each was missing one leg. hmmm

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December 17, 2006

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Surprisingly enough, I never filled out this meme back when everybody was doing it. I'm always on top of my game. Here it goes, y'all!

4 Jobs I've had:
Hostess - Lady and Sons Rest
Salesperson - Jonathan Arthur Boutique
Food person (lol)- Quiznos
Server - Gryphon Tea Room

4 movies I could watch over and over:
Billy Elliot (because he followed his passion)- YES I LOVE THIS MOVIE MARJORIE!
Star Wars - duh
Almost Famous
Airplane - (Yes, I remember now; I had the lasagna.)

4 (3 in my case) places I've lived in:
Mayaguez, Puerto Rico (born and raised for 20 years in this darn place)
San Juan, Puerto Rico - I fuckin miss you Santurce
Savannah, GA

4 TV shows I love or loved:
the Xfiles!!!
Futurama
CSI (Vegas not that crapfest that is Miami)
Friends

4 places I've vacationed:
New York, NY
Orlando, FL
Las Vegas, NV
Los Angeles, California

4 websites I visit daily
Gmail
Myspace and The Facebook
The FOrce.net
Weather.com
(notice how I do not visit any news websites?)

4 of my favorite dishes:
Anything my Mom cooks
Anything my Auntie cooks
Anything my Uncle cooks
Anything my Abuela cooks


4 places I would rather be:
PUERTO RICO
PUERTO RICO
PUERTO RICO
in bed....IN PUERTO RICO

4 people I am tagging
GOSH, I don't know. Anyone?

Didn't this meme use to be a whole lot longer?

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December 15, 2006

All I want for Christmas is my two front teeth, my two fron--- *smack* STFU kid!

You know the drill. Leave a comment with your address (it won't actually post) and you get this luuurvely postcard in the mail, completely free but brimming with love and holiday awesomeness. :D

By the way. I'm back on the game, bitches. No more crying, no more breakdowns, no more post-college confusion. Star Magnolia: 2007, F yeah!

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December 13, 2006

Movies of myself


MY VERY FIRST CHWISTMAS TWEE!!
Originally uploaded by Amy Nieto.
This is my Xmas tree. It's sponsored by the color pink. The thing is ALL pink. Even the bloody stand. And Oh, how I love it! Have I decorated the thing? I believe not. My plan is to make the ornaments myself but so far I've only done three. Thankfully it's a small tree.

The reason I bought this marvelous tree was to cool the dark emotions caused by the cancellation of my xmas Vegas trip due to lack of money. So this will be my first Xmas spent without the family.

And I believe that is the cause of my erratic behavior as of late. Heck, I'm even working on New Year's Day. Pointless? YES. Nobody will be out on the streets BUYING clothing. Ugh. Oh well.

But yes, this is my tree. I also need to get my xmas postcards ready to y'all. Well, some of y'all anyways.

I need to gather my strengths and create some art. There is no reason to mope around when I have so much talent in my little fingertips anxiously awaiting to be unleashed.

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December 11, 2006

Two thousands miles I've roamed just to make this dock my own

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This is my new bag and OMGZ it is FANTASTIC. Orgasmic, even. I am so thrilled to finally own it (though it's not the Paul Frank original, oh well).

Today I ventured into the depths of bankruptcy by taking a trip to the outlets on Hilton Head, SC, where I shopped till I dropped. Funny thing, when I got home I realized that all the clothing I bought was grey. Even the wallet! WTF. I've been into grey lately. It's the new brown, which incidentally, was the new black sometime ago (like, 7.3 weeks ago when my heart wasn't so darn emo-black*).

Funnier thing, as I was driving back to Savannah thru the Talmadge bridge I realized I was actually...sad to be back in Savannah. I felt this unnerving urge to just turn around and head north on 17. Which, of course, would've proved to be quite a fatal move on my part, seeing as, well, there's really no space to turn around on the bridge.

Despite all the signs thrown at me in the past few months, this subtle feeling has been the strongest sign so far: It's time for me to leave Savannah. To where? Uncertain. But I need to leave (and y'all know how much I love this damn place, I really do).

Yeah that's what's on my mind. Ugh. I hate thinking.



* OMG speaking about emo. So, okay, I'm kinda liking that Chemical Romance "Black Parade" song. Okay? It's emo, so sue me! Sue me in England!

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The Melancholy of Autumn

Inspired by an unending weekend rain, chilly temperatures and a heart that does not seem to cease the worrying, I photographed these hidden faces of Autumn. Fallen leaves, once the stars of my ethereal vision of America, lie unceremoniously on top of garbage bags and generally regarded as a nuisance that needs to be tucked away, far away from our homes. I guess this is my current vision of America.*

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*gosh that was so deep it hurt.

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